.Same Place, New Growth.

I have been letting go of a lot of pain and versions of me that no longer serve me.

The transition has been challenging because I keep wanting to look back; have I made the right decisions? What will happen now? What is next for me?

~I keep reminding myself that looking into the past won’t get me to where I need to be. Grasping onto what was and not was is. Now.

Looking into the future… well that never happened so, how can I assume what is far beyond my reach is what’s coming for me? Now.

We make choices. We make mistakes. We learn. We forgive, give thanks and we move forth. You no longer are required to give where you are not getting. You no longer have to support where you are not being supported. You don’t owe anyone one bit of your energy, but… keep your values in check. Move gracefully with kindness, gratitude, & respect, we all have our side of our story.

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Change

I grew up moving around the world (this life chose me), every 3-4 years I had chances for new beginnings, creating new versions of me. Letting go of the bad I had done in the past and starting fresh. However it seemed that I always turned out to be the same person, people 10 years later would see me and say, Celine you haven't changed. I would get quite offended by that because I tried so hard to change, I didn't want to be me. I wanted to create new identities for myself but that didn't work out because our mind is all we know. You can form coping mechanisms to escape your reality but you can't let go if you haven't accepted the past as it was. You can't start fresh and be unhappy with who you are. You can move to the other side of the world but your problems move with you.

For 4 years now I have been tuning into my spiritual journey, finding inner peace, exploring my purpose, why I am here. Dismantling thought patterns in my mind that I no longer can identify to, tuning into how I feel within. Why am I experiencing discomfort? Why does this make me feel excited? Why do I feel exhausted today? What am I resisting?

Since then I have grew to understand the importance of setting intentions, setting goals for myself, for me and not for anybody else. Goals may seem ambitious, "Be the first person to become a billionaire in 2 weeks", ye ye. But what about the simple things; health, routine, creative expressions, reading. >>> A small goal I have been working on for years now was simply to finish one book I enjoy, I started off by reading at least one page a day, then it went to 5 minuets a day, and currently I can read chapters in full enjoyment. I sometimes think 'ngai!' I am reading too much the book will finish too soon.

Change takes time, patience, discipline and consistency.

Don't allow anyone to set goals for you, only you know your progress. Yes.

Defining you.

Now. People are really good at trying to define who you are but today I might wake up feeling like a rockstar, tomorrow I wake up feeling like a rock. As soon as someone tells me who, how or what to be I shut off. I feel projected onto, I feel like I need to find one word that will define me and honestly I have found those words for myself. Someone who will meet me today will label me as unemployed, one who saw me 2 weeks ago will call me DJ Shero, my parents will determine me a worry case, and someone who will meet me years from now will call me an artist & creative entrepreneur. Chose the life you want to evolve into, you may go through many versions of who you once thought you would become and that is ok, see yourself as your higher version, without how people will treat your and how you will treat others. (You can't determine that only the moment will). You are living your life for you and not for anyone else, allow love to move you, allow your touch to guide you.

You are magic.

Wan Love